“I am so angry I binged on that whole comic last night…”

A reader asked me this question on Tumblr:
I AM SO ANGRY I BINGED ON THAT WHOLE COMIC LAST NIGHT AND I AM SO INVESTED IN IT NOW AND I’M BLAMING YOU
alexwoolfson alexwoolfson said:

epistemotypus:

fistopher:

epistemotypus:

fistopher:

epistemotypus:

ipgd:

epistemotypus:

ipgd:

this is happening to EVERYBODY

you arent alone buddy

No you don’t understand.

I have never been this invested in a webcomic.

This isn’t fair.

Nothing on a website titled yaoi911 should be this gripping.

I’m just.

I’m so angry.

Why?

What did I ever do to you?

i feel you man

For years I’ve intentionally sat outside of fandom. I made it a point to never talk about fandom shit. I used to do that, y’know? On Gaiaonline, I’d spend hours on a Sonic the fucking Hedgehog thread arguing babby physics with other nerds over who could run faster. I’m almost 30 now, and I would pride myself on how I was chill over media. I was glad that I could remain being able to even, and the ability to hold and control my feels, even when beloved characters were murdered. It was liberating to know that I could enjoy without being manipulated.

I thought I was over this.

I thought I had learned my lesson.

I’m almost 30.

I’m sorry, I’m done now, I just.

What did I do to deserve this?

the young protectors is so BAD THO DUDE

The whole time I was reading the start I was just like “Oh god literally all these dudes are doing the pillowy lips bedroom eyes thing” and expecting it to be such terrible yaoi tripe. I was so prepared for this to turn into total weird crying/shouting orgasm face, like the whole time I was just waiting for it. I was waiting, trained like a dog, for the eventual bedroom scene that would then cap the story off b/c that’s what all yaoi comics do. They do the drawn out sex scene, the artist painstakingly placing every drop of sweat and every strand of ejaculate. That’s what these comics DO, that’s all they ever ARE.But then somehow I found myself on the corner of betrayal and manipulation, and by then it was too late. I had been lied to. I had been manipulated by The Annihilator. I had been used and betrayed, just like Kyle had been.I was invested.And now we’re having dilemmas about ends justifying the means and I’m so angry. This thing is hosted on a yaoi website it’s not supposed to be interesting. It’s not supposed to be good. It’s supposed to be your average fetishistic old guy fucking a young guy comic with light super hero over tones.But why do I love it so much?

Do you love it because you don’t love yourself?

I mean, I’m not like crying the bathroom depressed all the time, hate myself. But I’m also not like super confident the best at everything let’s go out on a date, love myself. I’m more in the proud of the person I have become while aware of my flaws and seeking to better myself, tolerate myself.Am I making any sense?

My work here is done.

Share

Leave a Reply